Your Grace is Enough

It is my first time to write something here.. hehe :)
For the past 2 or 3 weeks, there are many things happening in my life, ordinary things which touched and taught me. I want to thank God for all these as I share them here. (Pardon me if it is very long :P )

It started from the prayer meeting 3 weeks ago, When Things Don't Go The Way You Want Them To. I really thank God for bro Joshua who shared a beautiful poem by Russell Kelfer, titled You Are Who You Are For A Reason, during his talk. Thank you bro, because it touched me and it has been echoing in my head since then. The poem is as follow:

You are who you are for a reason.

You're part of an intricate plan.

You're a precious and perfect unique design,
Called God's special woman or man.

You look like you look for a reason.

Our God made no mistake.

He knit you together within the womb.

You're just what He wanted to make.

The parents you had were the ones He chose,

And no matter how you may feel,

They were custom-designed with God's plan in mind,

And they bear the Master's seal.

No, that trauma you faced was not easy.

And God wept that it hurt you so;

But it was allowed to shape your heart

So that into His likeness you'd grow.

You are who you are for a reason,

You've been formed by the Master's rod.

You are who you are, beloved,

Because there is a God!

The poem goes really well with the praise and worship session that night led by bro Hans, so I also want to thank Hans for leading the worship that night coz it touched me too. From both the poem and the PW session I come to think and claim to myself that I am a perfect creation of God. I have to admit that all this time I overlook this fact that God is God, that He never made mistake when He was creating me, and you. That I am not a mistake, that I am just what He wanted to make, a perfect and unique creation. Having been working as a graphic designer for 6 months, makes me to understand a little bit better on the feeling of how a Creator loves His creation. My work is basically designing printed materials such as brochure, newsletter, poster, etc. Everytime I finish one project and get the result printed, I always treasure it. It makes me think, would not it be the same with God? He created me (us) in His love, and because He is perfect, He never makes mistake in creating me (us), and just as I treasure the things I design and create, He must be even more treasure and love me (us), His creations. It just put myself in awe, when I realize how God is trying to reveal to me a little bit more about Him through the things I am doing for the past 6 months. He is really awesome!

And things go by after that, I decided to listen to the talk "Charismatic Renewal in the Light of Evangelization" at The Emmaus website which was so profound for me too, thank you Andy for sharing that Jesus is alive and He is with me. Once again, it is another thing that I know by head, but very difficult to "know" by heart. To really realize that Jesus is alive and He is beside me and He cares about what I am going through, it really make a difference in my daily life. And I really thank God for this revelation.

And ya, things go by again and I came to the prayer meeting last week. I thank God also for the praise and worship session led by Ria, especially for the song Your Grace is Enough and When I Say That I Love You. I realize how difficult it is for me to really "sing" a song, often times the lyric is beautiful but it just passed by. That night I tried to really ponder while I sang, When I Say That I Love You, it means I give the best for you and when I say that I love you I will give everything for you. And I slow down, turning down my voice volume, and in my mind I was imagining Jesus on the cross laid down His life for me and for you, giving everything and the best of him, His throne, His pride and His life for me and for you, so that we can live with Him for all eternity, because He loves us so much He doesn't want to lose us and be separated from us. The love that is just too huge for me to comprehend, and I still need a lot of grace and faith to really understand that greatest love on earth. During the past week after the prayer meeting, I very often sing that song, in the morning, at night or when I was working. I try to remind my self, "When I say that I love you it means I give the best for you". God always give the best for us, it is very difficult to understand and believe, in the midst of all the pain that I am going through especially after I graduated from university, but I want to try to remember that each day. I try to remember that, especially when my work does not go smoothly, He will give the best for me.

I have also been pondering about the song Your Grace Is Enough. Andy shared with me a blog post by Fr Luke Fong about living in the present moment. I have to admit also it is a struggle for me to leave in the present moment. I keep reminding myself again and again to enjoy now, not worrying about tomorrow. It is hard… But after I read this blog and plus that song during the PW session, with God's grace, I have been trying to say that word to myself again and again. His grace is enough for me. His grace is enough for me. So it happened that on Tuesday morning, I have to send 2 projects for printing. Both projects are very heavy in computer memory-consumption. The software just kept crashing again and again and saving took a looongg time, and in the middle of saving, it crashed -_-' So I was really really stress because I need to send both to the printer asap due to the tight deadline.  So that morning, I prayed whatever I can, many many Hail Mary, which I believe is really really really powerful, I invoked my Guardian Angel, all the saints and angels in heaven. And I kept saying that sentence, Your Grace is enough for me. And after trying several times saving with my PC and kept crashing, I moved to another PC because since my senior left, there is one idle PC, so I said to myself, lets try using that one maybe can work better. And praise the Lord, it really worked better. Saving still took a long time, but it didn't crash. I really thank God because I believe it is only by His grace. And I thank Mother Mary, my Guardian Angel, all the saints and angels in heaven for their powerful intercessions for me. It is a miracle happened to me that morning. I managed to submit both projects to the printer quite on time. Praise the Lord!

So for me the past few weeks, I thank God for so many revelations and reminders I have received from Him, through my brothers and sisters, and how they have helped me to have more faith in Him, especially during my work. So pardon me for a very looonngg testimony hehe :P I would like to close it with a summarize:

Jesus is alive and He is always with us, He has given everything for us and He will always give the best for us. His grace is enough.

and with a verse from today's gospel:

"But immediately Jesus spoke to them and said, “Take heart, it is I; do not be afraid.” " (Matt 14:27)

Alleluia!