Dec is holiday??

The 1st tot dat comes to my mind when I hear of the month dec is holiday! It is a conditioned reflex since the school years so after many years out of school, this impression of dec still stays... but not this year.

Since sept, I knew I would be plagued with 2 deadlines this dec..dangerously closed, should have started preparing earlier yet I had other things to do. When dec came, 2 unexpected additional deadlines to meet appeared. Dreadful and highly stressed, my sleep deprivation +++ and sleep quality - - -. I felt so drained that I couldnt even attend some of the events/meetings I promised my friends I would attend. (sorry William).

Dont know about you all but for me, when I dun sleep well, a lot of negative feelings will come and I was thoroughly overwhelmed with the Big Ds - down, depressed and devastated. Fortunately, the Ds toned down when I did sleep slightly better on ocassional nights when God had blessed.

So where is the Christ centred message after all this verbal diarrhea? Though I am still in the midst of the storm and my heart is numbed by all this !!##**, I can feel Jesus extending His hand and give me a mighty pull from the abyss when I am going down. Like what the favourite priest had mentioned today, the one thing that we would like to hear when we are at our lousiest is 'I am here with you'. Soft and sometimes 'overlooked', this reassurance has many times saved me from breaking down. Thank you, Dear.

And I would like to thank God for showing me the obstacle that is standing in His and my way. Something which I try many times to fend off but lots of time harping on it. Hvn had the courage to move out and on yet. Still leeching on me like scabies.... Wait till Jesus come with the Malathion...