Life of St Teresa of Jesus

I really like to read books, especially the life of the saints. It is because when I read their stories, there are certain areas or weaknesses that I can relate to. The same goes when I read the life of St Teresa of Jesus.

I read this book accidentally because I was watching over the stuff while the rest of Emmausians were away for Vincent and Desh pre-wedding photos. Borrowed Andy's kindle (because I did not bring mine), I just try to look for a book that I can read.

Haven't finished the book yet (still in the progress of reading it), I found one part that I can relate to:

I was also extremely angry with myself on account of the many tears I shed for my faults, when I saw how little I improved, seeing that neither my good resolutions, nor the pains I took, were sufficient to keep me from falling whenever I had the opportunity. I looked on my tears as a delusion; and my faults, therefore, I regarded as the more grievous, because I saw the great goodness of our Lord to me in the shedding of those tears, and together with them such deep compunction.

It is because I also have good resolutions to stay away from sin, but it is not enough to keep me from falling. And the pains that I got also could not stop me from sinning whenever I have the opportunity.

Knowing that even a saint had the same experience really helped me to understand myself more. Indeed only by God's grace I can overcome the sin and not by my own strength.

I will continue reading this book until I finish it.