Christmas – A time for Christ to be born in our hearts

When I was young, I often sat by the Christmas tree, watching the beautiful Christmas lights while everyone was in bed. I sat there in the darkness, gazing at the beautiful tree. I always tried to imagine how wonderful it would be if I were able to visit Jesus in the manger. How I longed to be there! I would picture the stable with all the messy hay and the calmness of the animals. I would picture myself, as a poor shepherd, as a Magi, or sometimes as lil ol’ me dressed in my modern clothes, looking very out of place in the manger. What didn’t change though, was that I always pictured myself as the visitor, the outsider. Someone coming to visit Jesus.

This Christmas, God started to show me what Christmas truly means. He made me realise that I was never the visitor, and I was never the outsider. Because He had always welcomed me! Now, I  come to realise that instead of me visiting Him, it has always been Him visiting me. The visitor is Him! I know He longs to come in. He stands at the door of my heart, patiently, lovingly... But did I always welcome Him? Was there room for Jesus in my heart? Was it ever so cluttered with worries and schedules, parties and presents, and even good friends and family?

2000 years ago, there was no room for Jesus at the inn. Is there room for Jesus today in my heart? Sometimes I feel my heart is so unworthy a dwelling place for Him, the King of Kings, the Lord of the universe. But then, I hear His gentle voice speaking into the depths of my heart, reassuring me that He had chosen to stay in the manger, a humble stable that was not fit for a King. Why then, should I be ashamed to invite Him into the stable of my heart? He tells me that it is not the inn of our egos that He longs to visit, but the stable of our poor and unworthy hearts. Inflamed by this Love, I made it the focus of my advent preparation this year to just desire Jesus to come into this poor heart of mine. Knowing that I do not have anything to offer to Him, except a lowly dwelling place in my heart that is much less then the humble stable that He was born in.
 
Brothers and sisters, Jesus did indeed come into my heart this Christmas. And I am overjoyed to share His good deeds with you! From the early days of Advent preparation, which was filled with so much uncertainty, confusion, and unworthiness, I was simply struggling to really believe that God would make a home in me this Christmas. But God in His infinite love, poured down His joy into my heart a few days before Christmas, so much so that I felt that my small heart could not contain everything He wanted to give. Now I understand a little better the true meaning of Christmas. The greatest joy is to have Jesus being born in our hearts anew. The greatest gift man has ever known, so hidden and so humble, but so alive to those that would seek Him. He is waiting to be discovered by little children such as ourselves.  The God of the universe, hiding in our child-like hearts, so that the world may see Him in us! Let us welcome Him into the slum of our hearts, because He sees all that is ugly in us and yet, He loves us anyway.

Here is a poem dedicated to baby Jesus from me. I felt inspired to write this at the beginning of Advent, and it guided my advent preparation all the way.

The Visitor
O sweet baby Jesus
Most loving Messiah
Born in a manger
So poor and forlorn
 
I wish I was there
To adore You in silence
I wish I was there
To gaze at Your face
 
No words can describe
The beauty of You
A pure baby boy
Amidst the poor and the meek
 
Asleep on the manger
With Mary beside
Surrounded by animals
At your bedside
 
Though I wish and I long
To visit You in the manger
I know I cannot
But visit me, you can
 
So come dearest Jesus
Come visit my heart
And be with me this Christmas
Then shall I be content

One final thing, I’d like to share this Christmas invitation with all of you. Click here for a lovely invitation from Jesus!!  http://www.frontiernet.net/~jimdandy/specials/xmas.htm

I pray...Lord, every single day, may You, and You alone be born in my heart anew. I ask that You may grant me the grace to desire You more and more each day. And when You knock, Lord, grant me the courage to open the door and the humility of a little child to welcome You in.

Love,
Karen

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Comments

Wonderful sharing about the true meaning of Christmas

Thanks, Karen! I love your write-up plus the link to the invite of Christmas celebration. I especially like the birthday invite details of Jesus Christ:

Date: Every day. Traditionally, December 25
but He's always around, so the date is flexible...

Time: Whenever you're ready.
(Please don't be late, though, or you'll miss out on all the fun!)

Place: In your heart.... He'll meet you there.
(You'll hear Him knock.)

Attire: Come as you are... grubbies are okay.
He'll be washing our clothes anyway. He said something about
new white robes and crowns for everyone who stays till the last.

Tickets: Admission is free. He's
already paid for everyone...
(He says you wouldn't have been
able to afford it anyway...
it cost Him everything He had. But
you do need to accept the ticket!!

Refreshments: New wine, bread, and a
far-out drink He calls "Living Water,"
followed by a supper that promises to be out of this world!

Gift Suggestions: ; Your life. He's one of those
people who already has everything else.
(He's very generous in return though.
Just wait until you see what He has for you!)

Entertainment: Joy, Peace, Truth,
Light, Life, Love, Real Happiness,
Communion with God, Forgiveness, Miracles, Healing, Power,
Eternity in Paradise, Contentment, and much more!
(All "G" rated, so bring your family and friends.)

Wonderful site...Karen...thanks for creating it..it really brings me back to the true meaning of Christmas and not the commercial meaning of Christmas that the secular world promotes. It brings back comfort and deep joy that Christ has always been there waiting for us with wide open arms. He loves us so much that he died for us on the cross. Like one of the phrase in the praise and worship song "You'll never know how much it costs to see your sin upon that cross". It also reminds me to be good to others if not Jesus has died for us in vain.

Let me share with you my Christmas celebration. It wasn't any spiritually involved Christmas celebration, just a simple family gathering with all cousins on Christmas Eve, followed by afternoon mass on Christmas Day and going off to Basil's place for more food and games.

Let me elaborate more about my gathering with my family. It was a nice, warm gathering with my entire extended family. My family prepared sumptuous food during Christmas Eve together before we gather together to head out for my grandmother’s place. It was a nice opportunity once a year that my whole family gather together to cook a nice meal. We're able to bring out our helpfulness with one another in preparing the food diligently, thoughtfulness and presentation.

In all, we cooked pasta meat sauce, broccoli and salmon and bought durian logcake from Good Wood Park (contributed by my 2nd sis), 2 bottles of red wine and chocolates from Italy (contributed by my eldest sis). I could see the generiosity in my family by their contributions to our Christmas gathering.

It was a heartwarming experience when we met my cousins, as all of them are decked in adorable Santa and reindeer costumes. My cousins baked brownies and strawberry muffins and bought strudel, pies and vodka. My grandmother and uncle prepared chicken curry, beehoon, pork rib soup, barbecued chicken wings, prawns. I could see Christ present in each of them as we put in so much love and thought into prparing the food from scratch. We started guessing the flavour of my cousins' muffins, much to her aghast. As she has prepared strawberry flavoured ones, but none of us is able to guess the flavour. Some say banana, some say coffee. Nonetheless, we praised each other for the effort contributed in it. Despite all the trials, difficulties and financial woes that each of my cousin's family including mine went through in the past, I could confidently say that we've emerged stronger, more united, more appreciative of one another. We've managed to stay as one family in times of trial. We've been tested but we perserved. We've been tried, but we survived. During times of celebrations, I come to know the importance of family. As the saying goes "a family that eats together, stays together". Even though the extended family of my Mother's side are not Christians, we still made a point to celebrate Christmas together. To me, seeing all of us gather together for more laughter and joy, I could see Christ reborn in all of us.

As you aware, my family is a big foodie and we always prepared excess food for everyone. However, we make sure nothing is wasted at all and we’ll take away the leftovers backhome. Followed by then, we played some games of how much we understand our cousin. What are their favourite food, colour of previous spectacles, mode of transport to school, what are their nicknames in school, what do they fear of, what triggers them to cry at movies, how long did they dated their boyfriend and so on...

I hope that for my Christmas next year, I'll be able to prepare more fully for Advent and truly appreciate the true meaning of Christmas, just like Karen :)

Let me share with you a great web link that basically sums up my Advent goal next year: http://www.jesuit.org.sg/html/prayer/homilies/2009.yearc.advent3.php

Thanks Karen.. another

Thanks Karen.. another beautiful present for me when reading this sharing of yours. Yesterday i recalled the homily from Father during daily mass. he reminded us that 'Do we remember to give the birthday boy, Jesus, Himself, a gift on His birthday ? rather than getting concern on what we will get in the Christmas ? make me (again) realize, Christmas is all about Him instead all about me, parties, and decorations.

At last, Happy blessed New Year to you. May this year bring us closer to Him by days.

Love in Christ,
Monique

That sounds very familiar

Hey Monica. Your statement sounds really familiar to what I experience last year. If you don't believe, I put it inside my blog:

http://valentrichie.com/2008/12/26/christmas/

Thanks a lot Karen and Priscilla for sharing your Christmas story. For me myself, this year is a bit 'unfortunate' for me because I was feeling unwell on the Christmas Eve and hence I couldn't join the supper of The Emmaus, huhuhu... Well, but I felt grateful to be able to rest, at least :)

"To have courage for whatever comes in life - everything lies in that." (St Teresa of Avila)

Thanks Priscilla, it never

Thanks Priscilla, it never truly sunk in to me that God's love can be experienced when people around us have prepared the food lovingly for us. But your sharing has made me reflect more seriously on the effort that others put in during preparation of food. Oh, the website with Jesus invitaion is not made by me. Someone forwarded the link to me, and it was just so appropriately linked to my reflection that I decided to share it. Thank you for that link to Father Phillip's homily! It's a very good idea I think to put homily's online, and the Jesuits are doing something really good for many people.

Monica and Valent, I too had a simillar experience like yours. And haha...yes, the priest giving the homily was Father Terrence. He's preached it for 3 years now, or as long as I knew him in St Anthony's. The very 1st year, he asked us to think of a gift f or Jesus, to write it down on a paper that will be collected and offered during offertory to God. I totally relate to what Valent, you said in your blog....to give a gift that we haven't even mastered is really scary. For me, that year, I wanted to forgive someone who had hurt me deeply and who continues to hurt me almost everyday. That year, a miracle happened in my life. God, who knew I couldn't forgive, guided me to a friend's blog a few days before Christmas (I never read blogs ever in those days!). And in the blog, was everything I needed to know about forgiveness. Every single word leapt out of the screen and penetrated my heart. I just kept crying and crying because it felt like God knew exactly what I was going through, and was telling me..."you see? you can forgive after all. I will help you". And with that, I felt the deepest peace I had ever known in my life.

That year, I experience the peace of Christmas. And I truly believe, that God will repay us a thousand times over for the things we find so hard to let go. Looking back now, I find it so appropriate that God used the internet to reach out to me. And I think what Pope Benedict now is promoting during World Communications Day ...is going to help change the world in ways we cannot yet imagine.

Wonderful reflection Karen,

Wonderful reflection Karen, thanks a lot, and thanks also priscilla for your sharing :)