Session 3: New Life in the Spirit ~ a personal reflection

It’s a great day!

Finally, all the "torture" of assignments is finito! Thanks to God for holding me through =) and so I can make this reflection just now.

The session that day was about New Life in the Spirit. I didn’t really have the idea who was Holy Spirit. Firstly, I thought that it was just a God’s tool to guide our ways in life and to keep us close to Him, remember Him for every second. I imagined that God who loves us will spread his Holy Spirit (of course in spirit form like smoke or something) to every single of His beloved children. I really rarely pray to him because I have this thought which is that Holy Spirit is the lowest part of the trinity God. I guess I was mistaken though. I eventually learned that he should be treated in the same way we treated the Father and Jesus, which we have to put them first above any other things. I hope I can understand him better through this journey in YISS.

When I was asked what is missing in my life, I could never think of anything as that I’m happy enough for everything I have. God has faithfully given everything we need. Praise Him for that. Then, after listening how the others lack, I realized that I lack the same way they lack or perhaps more. I find that I want to be more like Holy Spirit, just like to be more like Jesus. That’s the hardest thing in life for me and I think it will be one of the final goals in this life and then to face Him.

I want to love everyone just like Jesus love every of His sinful children, be the first and unconditionally loving them. It is like this: I often think twice when someone asked for help. I will think back what that person had done for me before. Has he been good or bad to me? Why should I be good to him? Will I get any personal benefits in return? And so on. At this point, I belief I should change my life perspective. Of what good things I did, should it be only God himself to see, know and understand. I should know that it is God himself who will grant us of what we did to others and how we behave in this life.

It was 2nd of May: my birthday and also Johanes’ =) I was happy that almost everyone greeted me happy birthday. I was quite surprised how others treated me well. But actually, in Emmaus, I often felt this way. Everyone is what we called supel in Bahasa, which means good in socializing with anyone, regardless age difference and all. Everyone welcomes everyone.

I also want to thank everyone for making my birthday great! Especially for the cross and card from Maggy, the book from Christine, everyone’s prayer for me and also Nicky mouse’s drawing =) I never expect it, hehe.. And today, I’d look forward for another great moment with Emmausian (or Emmauser?) God bless us all every single second in our life! =)

In God's unconditional love,
Jessica ^.~v